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Another Beginning

Well, the beginning of yet another cycle has come.
Month 11. We are solidly into month 11 of trying to have a baby.
And let me tell you, it's rough. Emotionally and physically.

I once again visited my RE for another ultrasound to check my ovaries, still looking good. We also hashed out a new plan, though of course it is God who will be carrying out His plan in His time no matter what the we and the RE discuss or do.

This try we are upping my dosage of Clomid to hope for a "stronger" ovulation. I will also be starting progesterone supplements after ovulation. Fun times!

But less about that and more about the funny e-cards.
One of the many things I like to do to help myself through the pain of another negative pregnancy test and the start of a new cycle is look up infertility e-cards on Pinterest. Let me tell you, they are hilarious and very true.

Here are some of the best:


Truth. I can't tell you how many times I've broken down after seeing yet another ultrasound picture on social media. Especially when it is a couple that has not been trying as long as us, or hasn't really been trying at all, "it just happened". Ugh.


This one just makes me laugh, mostly because it's so true I want to make sure I don't start crying.


Every. Single. Cycle.


My puppy is AWESOME!! And everyone does keep popping out babies...


Word.


 All the stupid comments are killer. Especially when people try to give pointers--do you really think we haven't tried that?!


Oh the complaining. I'm not saying pregnancy is easy, not that I know first-hand, but I am saying that you at least need to remember that you are carrying a precious life inside you, which is something that women like me would give a limb to do.


Yep.


RELAXING DOES NOT MAKE BABIES!!!!


Stop asking that question. Just don't. Not to anyone. It's not your business to know if or when a couple starts trying to have a baby. Their journey might be a difficult one and you are definitely not making it any easier.


Oh the symptom spotting. I've never wanted sore boobs more.


Haha. Yeah, it's the fun part. Or the part that makes you so emotional every month that you seriously consider that you have a mental illness.


No you don't. You just don't. And you telling me about your cousin, coworker, or brothers sister-in-law who had trouble getting pregnant is not going to help me. If I've told you about our struggles its because I want you to be sad with me. To pray with me. And to let me hold your baby every once in a while.

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