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National Infertility Awareness Week

Cycle 12
Month 14
Cycle day 26
Days Past Ovulation 6
Clomid cycle 4

I've begun the second phase of waiting this cycle.
I've heard that this week is National Infertility Awareness Week.
There have been news stories as well as a few friends posting things about it on Facebook. All of the people I've heard talking about this are ones who are on the other side of infertility. The have babies and are no longer in the infertile category. I am so thrilled for them. Their babies are incredible blessings & big miracles from God.

Though it fills me with hope that I will someday be in the no-longer-infertile crowd it is still difficult as I am still not there. And though I am typing this now, during National Infertility Awareness week, I will probably not be brave enough to make this blog public until I'm on the other side of infertility. It's just too hard.

There are many reasons that this is something that is too hard to share.
First is the unwanted and completely unwarranted advice. Unless you are a medical professional who specializes in fertility and reproductive issues you REALLY don't have anything to tell me that I haven't already been told. I have a reproductive endocrinologist who knows all of my fertility issues. I don't want you, person who has one or more children, to tell me how you did it & that it will work for me. It's highly possible that we've tried that and clearly it didn't work!

Second is the hope that my infertility journey will end with this cycle, so instead of stating my infertility it becomes a pregnancy announcement. This is a big one for me. Though there are people who know our story there are so many more who don't know anything about it, and my hope is that they won't know until we have a baby on the way. My hope is that will be soon.

This time last year we had just started our TTC journey. We were just on cycle 2, approaching pregnancy test day much like we are this cycle. The first two cycles off birth control were normal, nothing notable that would've pointed to any of the problems that eventually arose. We were hoping that we would test on our birthday weekend and get the best birthday presents ever. We are back here once again this year, with test day falling on our birthday weekend, praying for the most amazing birthday miracle ever.


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