Waiting is the Hardest Part

Thirteen months into this journey and waiting is still killer.
Waiting is one of the hardest things to get through each month.
The only thing harder than waiting is getting a negative pregnancy test & starting the subsequent period.

The beginning of a cycle brings new hope, but also a new waiting period. After the menstrual cycle has ended it becomes a waiting game for ovulation. After ovulation it becomes a waiting game for either pregnancy or another cycle.

As today marks ovulation day we will begin the next phase of waiting tomorrow.
Waiting and praying. Lots of praying.

Praying that the medication to mature eggs worked. (Clomid)
Praying that the shot to release the mature eggs worked. (Ovidrel)
Praying that the sperm meets and fertilizes the egg(s).
Praying that the fertilized egg implants at the right time and grows.
Praying that the pregnancy and baby are healthy.

Or, if that doesn't happen, praying for our emotions & hearts; praying that we accept that it's not God's timing yet; praying that we have the faith to do it all over again the next cycle.

It's amazing to think that this little syringe combine with 10 small pills could make the difference. These things could be what helps us get pregnant and have a baby (or babies!), Lord willing.

And at least we know (hopefully) that I will indeed ovulate this cycle thanks to this beautifully positive ovulation predictor test I took last night! I haven't seen a positive one of these since December!!

Here's to praying that the next 16 days don't drive us crazy.

And praying that we finally get to see 2 lines on a pregnancy test.

And that we finally get to have an ultrasound to look at a growing baby, not just my malfunctioning uterus and ovaries.

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