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Cycle 12 Month 14 Cycle day 26 Days Past Ovulation 6 Clomid cycle 4 I've begun the second phase of waiting this cycle. I've heard that this week is National Infertility Awareness Week. There have been news stories as well as a few friends posting things about it on Facebook. All of the people I've heard talking about this are ones who are on the other side of infertility. The have babies and are no longer in the infertile category. I am so thrilled for them. Their babies are incredible blessings & big miracles from God. Though it fills me with hope that I will someday be in the no-longer-infertile crowd it is still difficult as I am still not there. And though I am typing this now, during National Infertility Awareness week, I will probably not be brave enough to make this blog public until I'm on the other side of infertility. It's just too hard. There are many reasons that this is something that is too hard to share. First is the unwanted an...

Cycle 12 Month 14 Cycle Day 9 Clomid cycle 4 Yep, that's right. Another cycle has begun. It didn't work last cycle. The hCG shot, though able to help me ovulate sooner didn't help us achieve a pregnancy. I knew it was all over when I got 2 negative pregnancy tests 13 and 15 days after ovulation. So, I stopped the progesterone pills and my period came a few days later. The end of last cycle was especially hard because I had allowed myself to become more hopeful that we would get it this time, that the hCG shot was somehow the magic weapon I needed to achieve pregnancy. It wasn't. It never will be. Pregnancy is truly a miracle, and the only one I know still performing miracles is the one and only Jesus Christ. As Easter came and went so did hundreds of pictures on social media of my friends/acquaintances with their sweet babies and toddlers. They were all absolutely adorable, but they did nothing to ease the pain of another holiday without a pregnancy. Thankfu...