Building a Bethards

Cycle day: not entirely sure Days past ovulation: 12 Medicated cycle: 5 or 6? First IUI This cycle is our first, and hopefully only, IUI and as such I am trying my hardest not to symptom spot. But as anyone who has been TTC that is super impossible. So, as I sit here 12 days past ovulation with 4 days left before I'm *supposed* to take a pregnancy test, I can't help but wonder if the things I've been feeling are PMS or pregnancy. It sucks that so many PMS symptoms are the same as the reported early pregnancy symptoms. I would dare to say its mean, even. With every cramp or twinge of my uterus my brain immediately thinks "Wait, what was that? Could it be my uterus expanding with the tiny baby starting to grow?" then just as quickly changes to "No, it's probably just PMS cramps. Stop being crazy, you're most likely not pregnant." I mean, why should this cycle be any different, after all? It's not like I've wanted it less i...

This cycle breakdown: Days 3-7: 7.5mg of Letrozole each night Days 11&13: ultrasounds to check follicle development Day 14: Ovidrel trigger shot Day 15: Beautiful positive ovulation test Day 16: today. Today is the day. Today is our first (and praying our only) intrauterine insemination, or IUI. I am starting this post around 8am Thursday July 2nd. One hour before my scheduled IUI. I am so nervous. I really want this to work. I mean, clearly I've been praying for pregnancy for 16 months now, and I've wanted it to work every time, but now that we are at this next big step I'm really praying this is it. I so long to hold my little one in my arms. I'm not 100% sure what to expect today, so we will see how this goes! 11:00 Update: Well, the IUI is finished. It was way more uncomfortable than I was expecting, but hey, if it gets me pregnant I'll take it for sure. I'll walk you through how the morning went. 9:00--took the semen to the dr to "wash...