Dealing with other people's pregnancies

One of the hardest things for someone struggling with infertility, other than their own negative pregnancy tests, is the pregnancy announcement from anyone in their social circle. Especially when it is an unplanned and/or unwanted pregnancy.

Every time I see a friend post a pregnancy announcement photo on Facebook or Instagram my heart breaks just a little more. I am, of course, over the moon excited for my friends. I think creating and carrying a baby is one of the most exciting things a woman can do. It's an incredible gift from God to be able to conceive and carry a child. It is difficult, though, to be able to completely share in their joy because of the pain of infertility in my own life.

The blog I referenced in my first post puts it perfectly:

You don't really need to say anything.... Just support us, pray for us, and be there when we might call upon you.

And share your babies with us, because it helps us while we wait. :)

Oh, and thanks for being patient with me... It's still a hard thing to go through

And remember, it's just my hormones talking!

Dealing with my own pain while attempting to join in others joys has been a great struggle for me personally, and it is emotionally draining to pretend that I am not hurting. Now, I do want to say that I am absolutely happy and want to share in the excitement of my friends when they announce pregnancies, it's not that I'm not happy for them, it's that I'm sad for me. I'm sad for my husband. I'm sad for my family.

As Christmas passes once again I am reminded that all my hope is in Jesus.
As is said in Luke 2:9-14:

And an angel of the Lord xappeared to them, and ythe glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were filled with great fear. 10 And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all zthe people. 11 For aunto you is born this day in bthe city of David ca Savior, who is dChrist ethe Lord.12 And fthis will be a sign for you: you will find a baby gwrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.” 13 And suddenly there was with the angel ha multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying,

14 i“Glory to God jin the highest,

jand on earth kpeace lamong those with whom he is pleased!”

For now I will keep on trucking. I will keep on praying. I will try to focus my eyes on Jesus and join in on the excitement of all of my friends who are blessed with sweet little babies.

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